I’ve had time to sit back and gather my thoughts. In the past few days, I’ve felt anger. I’ve felt sadness. I’ve cried. I’ve basically fell apart. I talked to my mom last night and she told me I need to feel compassion. I need to be at peace with the problem in order to have peace of mind, peace in my soul. It’s ironic to me that I just wrote a blog a week ago talking about how I have closure and we’ve finally made peace.. At first, I was SO DAMN SELFISH and I’m always preaching about how I want to be selfless. All I could say was, “How could he do this to me?”… and then I thought about it, why am I acting like he did this to intentionally hurt me? His world is about to be turned upside down. I don’t want to be selfish. I can be mad at him, but at the same time, I need to be sympathetic to a certain extent. I know that it’s going to be rough, but I’m prepared. I need to feel the same peace I felt last week and at the end of the day, I need to be selfless. It took a lot for me to come to this place in my life, not talking about the problem happening right now. When I first started college, I didn’t even care. I used to come back to Muncie four times a week living in Indianapolis and being a full-time student. I screwed my g.p.a, I screwed up. I had to go to Ivy Tech and work really hard…being denied by BSU TWO TIMES… many didn’t understand why getting into BSU meant so much to me. I finally got in on the third time and thankfully, my g.p.a didn’t transfer so now I have the opportunity to do great things. I have the chance to make the Dean’s List (something that I thought was SO out of reach) I can finally be great C:

The title of this blog is nothing short of perfect: TIME MAKES ONE BLIND. It relates to so many things going on in my life. I want to be at peace and eventually, time will make me blind of the bad things going on in my life. It can only go up from here, I know this.