Lately, I’ve realized the standards that I have set for myself. It’s kind of disturbing to me — because I know I’m better. I try to keep my personal feelings/life away from social networking just because drama and rumors stir up but it’s obvious I have very few friends that even care anymore.

I’m twenty and I tend to forget that. I don’t know why I expect the people around me to act more mature than they really are, I guess I’m just ahead of a lot of them. I’m tired of people using me for what I have and what I am able to do. I have the biggest heart and I am willing to do damn near anything for the people I love…but yet most tend to fail me. It just hurts my feelings I guess. When I’m rich and wealthy, these people are going to try to be a part of my $$$ but heck no..I don’t have time for that. 

I’m ready for a change..a change being physically, mentally, and emotionally. I’ve let so much go and let so many walk on me. I’m done being the doormat. I’m done being the good friend to those who could care less. I’m done feeling like I’m a second option. & most of all, I’m done waiting around for things that won’t change. I wouldn’t do it even if I could — but I can’t.

I swear I’m ready for change, bring it on — I’ll take as much as I can get.